He would have been 40 today

Instead he will always be 18

I really can't even imagine him at 40.  Would he be married with kids?  Would he be divorced?  Would he be a high school teacher or a coach?  Would we still be as close as we were?  Where would he be living?

I don't usually think about these things.  But today, is his birthdate and those things have come into my mind.  I do miss him every day but today especially so.  Maybe I will get a cake to celebrate or just light a candle.

I will celebrate the fact that he was in my life for 18 years and a part of my heart forever.